I’m really taken by this challenge uniting mama bloggers over at Shakti Mama, Childhood Magic and Twig and Toadstool. It’s also come at a time when I’ve been thinking quite inwardly about these issues.
I quite simply hate photos of myself, more so since Little B was born. I’ve battled with so many health issues since his birth (both his and mine) that I feel all photos of me are just a documentary journey of how tired and worn out one can look. And with my massive unwanted weight loss this year – now when I see a photo I think “hmm skeletal lollipop”…sorry check that “really really tired skeletal lollipop”.
But I love this idea of taking real unaltered photos and our acceptance of self – at all ages, stages, on our journey through life.
Like others, my husband is my #1 fan and makes me feel beautiful no matter what I look like or what I’m wearing. My son is #2 and tells me I’m “so cute” all the time and that he loves me. And last but not least, my mum is my #3 fan and loves me in all my stages – thanks mum J And you know that should be good enough for me.
I love my inner self so now I need to work harder at loving my outside self. I don’t mind aging, and am getting used to grey hair when it shows since I stopped dyeing my hair (that’s when I know it’s time to reapply the henna LOL).
So this is me:
Does putting up this photo make me uncomfortable? You betcha – on so many levels…because I have to look at it, because I don’t feel beautiful, because I’m scared the outside world will judge my appearance…..but as ShaktiMama has said
“I want to be bold for the camera. I want to think I am worth this photograph. I want to love me just as I am”.
So join in the challenge from Twig & Toadstool:
“here's the challenge...let's see the real YOU!!! Mamas let's unite in radical self acceptance...one blog, one photo at a time! If it scares you, then do it anyways...and let's start a discussion on why it's so scary in the first place. I urge you to look at that woman in the mirror, with her heart so full and ask yourself, "is she really so bad"? - Maureen